time ticking by....

The past few days for me (9 to be exact) have been moving and stopping and flipping by like some sort of wierd scene in a movie. I have trouble waking up some days and thinking "did that happen or was I dreaming" and the answer is different every morning. I feel like I am stuck in a bit of a vaccum where time is deffinately not normal and I am not sure if I will ever get out at times.
All that said, I really am doing well, drowning in a sea of paperwork will do that for you and I think ours will all be done on Friday. Then life can get back to normal.
Reading the above I think of myself, am I okay? I am, trust me, I am.
Adoption thoughts:
What if I am in the position that I would have to turn down a referral. I can not imagine the heartache and really don't want to. I know it is easier to think what if, than to have to...would I be prepared? What medical conditions could I handle? What medical conditions could my family handle? In a way, I hate that I have a choice, but in a way I am glad I do. When I was pregnant with my girls I had the choice of my activities, nutrition, etc...is the choice to refuse a referral similar. Pardon my pregnancy comparison, it is not meant in poor taste for those dealing with infertility, just my thoughts being sorted out. I guess all I can do is simply pray for the health of my future little ones and pray for guidance in all of our decisions regarding this adoption journey.
There is more, but I will need to hold off for now, time to kiss my girls goodnight and I wouldn't miss that for anything!